LAIGHT

By Tristan Laight unless stated.

Apr 26

DRABSTER.

I liked looking at the rain come across the field in sheets. The movement of liquid that only rain can make. The way it all falls together but apart from each other. Like the same way schools of fish float beside each other but hardly touch as they escape the jaws of a predator just so does the rain.

It don’t like it’s tapping on the window or it’s dripping on the pavement. I like it’s background distortion it creates when it hits everything and everything makes noise. The green grass, the brown trees, the grey stone walls and grey sky clouds all seem natural against my neon yellow Helly Hansen jacket, black trousers, black shoes and black gloves. I stick out like a saw thumb in the field. Even the rain makes a different noise against my shoulders and arms. It slaps and splatters without any muffling give in the material.

The looping choruses of Californian surf tunes run around my head. Fuzzy scenes of bronzed blonde young men and women on the beach, watching the surfers, drinking Coca Colas, listening to Dick Dale out of their big bouncy Cadillac’s stereo, and grabbing their boards before running into the domineering Pacific Ocean waves go around my head. The jangling guitars echo as the rain taps the top of my hood. It shouldn’t feel right but it does.


Apr 2

LOST DOWN THE HOLE.

I dropped my head and caught it in my hands. My fingers stretched across my face. They were long and slender and slid into my hair and pulled it back as if I was peeling my forehead.

My eyelids fell and I exhaled in exhaustion. The type caused by misery and loathing. Thin and aching but I opened my eyes and looked out over the ocean. Seagulls filled my sight and vision and the horizon. Waves twinkled and the sun beat down on my back from behind.

When the moon shone in its place I would walk down those stairs into the dingy Hole. I would drink and smoke opium and dance and watch the women dance to trumpets and saxophones and basses and pianos and drums. I would watch it in slow motion as the women slung their heads backwards to the sound of brass with the taste of liquor and flesh swilling around in my gob.

I would get lost in reds, rubies, breasts, brandies, shuffles, sweethearts, greens, grooves, exotica, erotica, diamonds and darkness down the Hole.

(Photography by Sid Black http://www.flickr.com/photos/sid_black/)


Feb 18

BLEEDING KNEE.

I held his hand and he pulled me closer. His breath running over my shoulder as I wept into his was comforting. It was nice to embrace another human when all you want is to left alone. Something about the warmth is infectious. My lips quivered and my jaw jolted like a child with a bleeding knee. The way his hand held my head made it better. It all felt so much better. The man I’d held feelings for for almost half my life was the only consul I wanted.

“You know you shouldn’t stay?” The words I wish he hadn’t said. They made me want to stay so much more. “The longer you’re here the more it’ll get worse. The more it’ll hurt, James.” The tears didn’t stop.

I was unconsulable, “You’re the only one. Now and forever. I can’t go. I just can’t.”

My eyes were red and ached so I closed them before he pushed me away. “I’m sorry, James. You have a life. I have a life. We’re separate and won’t ever be anything else.” My heart sank lower than it had ever sunk. His words meant more to me than anything and he in a single sentence ripped me apart.

“I’ll go but promise me you’re not going anywhere. I couldn’t bare it if you left.” I begged.

“I’m always here, for you.”

I wiped my crusty face and sticky eye lids. Leaving him behind was impossible. I couldn’t imagine living my life without thinking of it with him. It was unbearable to think about.

I cried all the time. I returned to the retreat I’d bought all those years ago for me and him. The farmhouse. The place where I had to bury it all.

(Photography by velvetveins http://www.flickr.com/photos/jennaishavingtroublebreathing/)


Feb 16

LITTLE THINKER.

Imagine anything you like,

Because you’re a little thinker.

I imagine I’m riding my bike,

And the children start shouting ‘Wanker!’

(Photography by Trudi http://www.flickr.com/photos/trudi/)


Feb 15

FRECKLES & LACE.

She had brown leggings,

And freckles on her face.

My mind began wondering,

About her in lace.

(Photography by Eylul Aslan http://www.flickr.com/photos/yllparisienne/)


Feb 8

DOLLAR BILL BOTTLES.

The smoke and haze,

Exotic dancers,

Catch my gaze,

As I drag.

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Shaken Martinis,

Dollar bills,

Are my fancies,

When I’m in Las Vegas.

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Paint brush strokes,

My foot taps,

The singer chokes,

And dies on stage.

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Hips shimmy,

Flesh flashes,

Gin rummy,

Brass blows.

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(Photography by Jen http://www.flickr.com/photos/jencaruso/)


Jan 24

EVERYTHING I HATE.

I don’t feel sorry for you,

Just leave me alone.

You’re everything I hate,

So leave me alone.

I wish you would die,

Just leave to me alone.

I hope that you die,

So you could leave me alone.


Jan 21

MY GLASSES ARE FOR YOU, JOHN.

I love my glasses, John,

And when I don’t have them on,

I cry and wail and moan,

For them to come back home.

I got a new pair today,

But they didn’t stay for long,

They fell off my nose,

But it didn’t matter. I didn’t like those ones.

Photography by Vanessa Champion (http://www.flickr.com/photos/vanessachampion/).


Dec 29

DREAMING GREEN.

My dreams come true.

In the night they blossom.

They spring and sprout.

The flower beds flourish.

Green grass lengthens.

During the night it grows.

When I am dreaming.

Photography by New Legs (http://www.flickr.com/photos/newlegs/)


Dec 27

DIMMING PARK.

Sat in the dimming park,

Looking at the skyline.

We saw the moon arced,

Slithery, slender and fine.

Thinking about the party,

Drinking some cheap beers.

Eating my last pink Smartie,

It almost brings me to tears.

Photography by Melissa Brandt (http://www.flickr.com/photos/42146958@N07/)


Dec 23

BRICK YARD.

His hot back steamed the dew resting on his tweed coat. The black leather collar was shining. The steam rose slowly and straight up into the air as it was a cold, dry, calm night. Bricks piled high to fashion walls surrounded him like huge gates trapping him in for the slaughter. He held his breath and took off his coat. His breathe and steam glowed orange, blue and then green as the Turkish restaurant’s lights signalled.

He imagined the footsteps tapping through the shallow puddles in the alley down to his bricked cell. The small wooden door being set alight. The flames drying his damp face. The heat sucking him in. The masked man behind the door waiting for him. Waiting until he was dead.

A patient man can make for a wicked one.

Photography by Pat Jennings (http://www.flickr.com/photos/busybee1952/)


Dec 13

SUMMER IN BATH.

A tall, dry grass tickled my bare back,

A beating Sun scared my pale arms.

A tinny, distant phone plays havoc,

A sugary red jam gives me sticky palms.

With these things I enjoy my time,

With the people around it’s different.

Without them I’d never see the time,

Without me it wouldn’t be that different.


Dec 6

MOORLAND STREAMING.

We’d play in the moorland stream,

Discuss, develop and preen,

Our intellect.

We’d hide in the shallow beck,

Stalk, hunt and then hit the deck,

Onto our elbows.

(Photography by Fudbal http://www.flickr.com/photos/trokut/)


Dec 3

MULLING.

Silky tarmac and pristine markings,

Mulling over the things she was saying.

Scorching heat and sizzling skies,

Wondering why she told me so many lies.

(Photography by http://www.flickr.com/photos/dyrkwyst/)


Nov 7

SYRUPY SKIES IN THE VALLEY.

In the valley you can echo,

You can shrink and grow.

Along the ridge looking down,

The woods turn autumnal brown.

With the syrupy skies darkening,

And the shadowy Sun slumping,

In the valley you can last,

You can forever elude the past.

(Photography by http://www.flickr.com/photos/printedinfilm/)


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